I had wanted to (because I'm a sucker for documentation) but I've been using all my energy to "survive" right now. But, I figured, why the heck not...the more trying times should always be written down so that you can look back and be thankful that you are no longer in the midst of them!
So, Laura, this is for you...and for ME...and for anyone else who cares...
I had always wondered why moms who were expecting a child other than their first, frequently seemed to have their other children in their pregnancy updates or pictures...or why there were all those pics of big bellies and little kids kissing them.
Well, now I know...
Although I know I will love all my children the same and am very excited about meeting this next one, the simple fact remains, the baby I carry in my belly can not yet compare to the one I carry in my arms. She is my one and only and, although time without the Gwendolyn is always welcome : ), there will never be a picture taken without her that I will consider "complete".
As for how my pregnancy is going...It's hard. I'm sick of being sick. Right now I would give anything to be getting all fat...instead of eating b/c I'm scared that not eating will make me sicker. I'm disappointed because I was definitely better by this time with my first.
But, I was in Walgreens the other day and I looked around me and saw so many people who appeared to have so much less than I do. I was saddened by the very long pharmacy line, filled with many people who probably suffer from difficult ailments each and every day. It's good to be healthy and it's good to be reminded that my health is a gift from God, as all things are, and it is not to be considered a privilege or a right...but a blessing.
With that being said..."LORD, please make me better, NOW!"